BLEACHING MY SKIN FOR $$+ I HATE BEING AFRICAN?? | CHIT CHAT GRWM/ STORYTIME| NDEYE PEINDA

BLEACHING MY SKIN FOR $$+ I HATE BEING AFRICAN?? | CHIT CHAT GRWM/ STORYTIME| NDEYE PEINDA



Hey guys, it’s been a while!!! I had a horrible allergic reaction to a facial moisturizer and took the time to avoid makeup and let my skin BREATHE! As I was going through my emails yesterday, I saw one from a brand that I soon realized wanted me to bleach my skin and provide them with the before and after photos. It triggered me so much! As a dark skin woman, there Is so much WORK that I have done to get to a place where I truly love myself and do not view my skin as a liability but as a part of what makes me beautiful. There are sooo many stories I have, so many experiences where I truly hated my skin or my culture. Being African and being dark skin may be on “trend” now, but there are real people who are traumatized and still hate themselves based on the treatment they received for being in either one of these categories. I am going to be honest and say I am a little embarrassed at how much I truly used to hate my culture and my skin, but it is a part of my identity and a part of the reason why I love myself so much now. To anyone reading this, that feels less than, that is dealing with any insecurity, take the time to truly find peace from within. LIVE, LAUGH AND LOVE because you are you, not IN SPITE of being you.

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S U P L O A D S:
Mented Cosmetics New Stick Foundation: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W0zQF2CgXrc&t=941s

Chit Chat GRWM: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jb5KsOiXJVE&t=311s

Huge Makeup Haul: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dHxcxYbfQI&t=318s

Full Face of Drugstore Makeup: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0SFls2tQII&t=329s

21 Black Owned Brands: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vz-TmyztIYg&t=3s

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  • Shannon Belser Reply

    Hey I’m so glad you did this video. I can definitely relate to some of your childhood experiences but from an African American experience. I’m sorry that some people are just ignorant and aren’t open to different cultures and ethnicities. As a dark skinned woman with a dark skinned husband and 2 children I pray to raise my children in a society that is more culturally aware and empathetic to others experiences. Keep doing you and know that you are beautiful and your content is well needed. Love ya

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • KiVonShe J Reply

    I can tell you right now….when I was younger o was made fun of for “looking mixed” or not looking “all the way black.” My darker skinned cousins would be the worst bc other aunts n uncles would call them blackie, darkie, midnight, etc. but to me, as a child, every woman I looked up to (besides Left Eye lol) was dark brown or deeper. I LOVED dark skin. It was smooth n velvety. So I would stay outside all the time to tan (even now I’m ready for the Texas sun). When I say “GIRL YOUR SKIN” not only am I being genuinely complimentary but it’s also to show that not everyone hates dark skin. I love the skin I’m in, although it changes color sooooo much all year round, I genuinely have so much love for dark skin bc it is rich n I know the ppl who talk the most shit about it only do it bc they can’t be us. So flaunt it sis!!!!!!!!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Kaylar Lee Reply

    I love ❤️ this video Yu really helped me out a lot

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • KiVonShe J Reply

    Ok girl so let me get my dinner ready then pop some corn for this movie I’m about to fully invest my time in. I can’t wait to hear what’s goin on in this chit chat

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Tiffany C Reply

    Yes, for the new subscribers!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Tiffany C Reply

    First off, you are my little sister, in my head. I wish I could give you a hug right now. I will not sit here and even pretend to know the full extent of your experience and pain. I can only relate to some of it being African American. My sister and sister-in-law is your complexion and to this day they hate the words dark, black, etc. It's very painful for them. I consider myself one of the lucky ones, knowing the origin of my direct descendants due to someone being wise enough to keep track since 1802, so I have always felt spiritually connected to Africa. My major is Africana Studies, not for the trend but because I respect the culture of many of the countries. If ever you are interested, check out my grandfather Bilali Mohammed who was stolen from Africa and ended up on Sapelo Island, Georgia in 1803. Keep having real conversations with us sis. It is needed. Love you sis ❤️

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • ShadaGreen Reply

    Thank you for this! So many thoughts and feels!

    I’ve had people ask why I don’t just lighten my skin, after I’d complained about not being able to find a foundation shade to match me. Like that’s a normal and acceptable action! I have a “friend” (?) who still insists that I’m silly for wearing makeup because “no black woman needs makeup, their skin is their makeup”. She says all we need is red lipstick and maybe some mascara. She’s not black but apparently had it all figured out. She also says that black women don’t have cellulite. I wish! And of course, that we all can dance. I can’t. I tell her she’s wrong. She thinks it’s because I have some white heritage in my background. I do, but I’m sure that has nothing to do with it.

    Ugh. “Pretty for a black girl” or telling me I’d be pretty if I wasn’t so dark. Those. Aren’t. Compliments! I hated it.

    I’ve looked at bleaching creams (only for spot treating though) but I’ve avoided them because 1. I don’t want someone to see me buying it and think for a second that I’m going to lighten my skin and 2. Most of those products encourage you to use it all over (for one BS excuse or another) and I don’t want to do that.

    I was born and raised in Anchorage, AK in the 80s. High school and college were kind of rough/confusing. Most guys I was interested in didn’t like me (especially not the black guys). It wasn’t because I was dark though, dating a black girl was expected if you were a black guy and “cool” for guys of any other color. I was “dark enough” but not “black enough”. I was raised here and there weren’t many of us starting out. (I think it wasn’t until 5th grade that there were more than a handful of black kids in each grade). I didn’t know there was a difference in my behavior, clothes, music and fashion tastes or my way of speaking compared to other black girls until Junior High. On the other hand, I was also the “safe black friend/token” because I was darker than most but “acted white” supposedly.

    When I realized I was different it was too late. I am who I am and wasn’t going to change just because of what was expected of me by strangers, black or white.

    Back then I had a bit of a figure. That coupled with being dark, people assumed I was promiscuous. I was confident. Dark and confident equaled either “intimidating” or “aggressive”. My honors English teacher in jr high was convinced I didn’t belong. So I never even spoke in her class. She was scared of me though, so I could do whatever I wanted and she wouldn’t say anything (chewing gum, eating in class, goofing off…) She kept moving me around the classroom, convinced I was cheating off classmates to get good test scores. I shocked her when I asked to try for the spelling bee. I won for the class. Shocked her again. Won for the school and went to state, she actually hugged me 😒 and never doubted me again but she also never apologized. Close to 3 decades later, it still bothers me.

    High School I was called a sellout and asked didn’t I know I was black. I told them it was obvious by my skin so I had nothing to prove. That didn’t usually go over well but whatever. I once met a guy I thought was cute and talked to him at school. He liked me too and gave me his number. I called him later but he didn’t know me. I had to describe myself in detail before he realized I was the same person he’d talked to before – because I didn’t “sound black”. He asked if I had family down south and suggested I visit them to learn how to talk like them. He explained to me that’s what he had to do. He was interested but only if I was more “authentic black”. Nope. Never talked to him again.

    Wow, this is getting long and I’ve lost my point. I’ll stop now.

    Basically, no one should have to change who they are to be accepted, whether it’s skin or core personality. That brand should be ashamed of themselves for even thinking such an invitation would be appreciated. ✊🏾

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • rasheena liberte Reply

    Wow, you’re vulnerability is beautiful. This is a conversation that we need to keep on having. Shout out to you for being bold enough to start it. As a darker skinned woman I know how it feels to be ostracized, ridiculed and bullied for the color of your skin. Kids used to over-sexualize me and that’s definitely something I still struggle with today in relationships because it always seems that I’m viewed as an exotic experience opposed to a human being 🤷🏾‍♀️

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Deborah Obeng Reply

    I am so so so glad I watched this video. I never realised how many things related to me and hearing your story helped me do some self-reflection and I realised that some of your experiences are what I endured and still endure today as well. Such a powerful video that I will not forget. You and your story are so inspirational. You’ve truly left a message deep in my heart that I hope to always remember.

    Thank you ❤️❤️

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Deezie 617 Reply

    Love that you’re so positive and encouraging and uplifting. Continue to be your authentic self. And you posted on my birthday!!! Thanks for sharing ❤️❤️

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • fatouseckprimus Reply

    SPEAK. ON. IT!!!!!!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Niame Traore Reply

    Thank you thank you so much for sharing your story. I had a similar story to yours, from the bullying for being dark skin to being ashamed of my African culture all the way to being fetishized in my predominantly white school. You’ve truly inspired me and revalidated my experience. I’m in tears right now because I never thought we would reach a point in society where there would be content that represent me and my story. You’ve helped me to love my beautiful dark skin. I appreciate this soooo much. Thank you for sharing your truth. 🥰😭

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • enaruvie Reply

    I come to your channel because your beautiful hue. I come from west Africa and my in my family we have all range of skin tones, but as my father was very dark, I prefer dark skinned men. In my eyes there is no such thing as too dark. That also applies to women I see beauty in all shades and think a girl can’t be too dark.

    My formative years were in Africa and I am also dark but never had issues about my tone. I am sorry you had to experience this growing up.

    You are right about the food odours. It pains me to hear this that you were ostracised for being African.

    Your teacher was lazy. She should have done her work. Her assuming a child would know everything about Africa being raised in America just renders me speechless.

    Okay I risk losing my African card I don’t love all Ankara. I grew up in Naija and it is still an acquired taste.

    I’m old enough to be your mum but I tell my children to be proud of their heritage and they are. I’m glad your mum tells you that.

    People need educating, but you need to be assured in yourself that you are a blessing to any man who pursues you. The right man will see this.

    You are right that someone will accept the offer to bleach. The company may not even think people need to bleach but they have a product to sell and they are preying on people’s insecurities to market their product, which is why they tried it with you.

    I appreciate your candour. I hope you continue to be truthful. People need to hear this. Stay blessed.

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Peggy Joseph Reply

    I use to get that same pressure……..to bleach my skin….I always said "HELL NO"

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • NdeyeInsider Reply

    I have never watch a video this long, but I couldn’t stop watching. Everything said on this video is true, being black is beautiful and we all should embrace our skins, and culture it should be the newest beauty trend.

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Peggy Joseph Reply

    The most interesting video EVER!!!!!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Peggy Joseph Reply

    You made me cry when explaining about your childhood and the bullying you experienced. I experienced similar things because of my dark skin. You're beautiful sis!!!!!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Lo Tv Reply

    Thank you this video was well needed

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Lo Tv Reply

    I USUALLY DON’T GO FOR DARKSKIN GIRLS BUT YOU’RE PRETTY SISSS🙄🙄🙄😂😂😂

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Ali B Reply

    Everything you said made sense!!!! Thank you for this! I needed the encouragement 💕

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Lo Tv Reply

    Being African is a trendddd!!!!!

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Lo Tv Reply

    Big sis don’t cry omg 😩😩

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am
  • Lo Tv Reply

    “Omg you’re skin” forreal 🙄🙄🙄🙄

    May 6, 2019 at 8:02 am

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